The Tears I Cry For You

© Kristin Gaines
Written on June 6, 2005

Monday night I got a phone call,
And they told me to take a seat,
Because the news that I am about to receive,
Is unbearable to beat.

They told me you were dead,
And you left me in this world alone,
The pains running through my heart,
Felt like a cold, dark, stone.

I cried myself to sleep at night,
For months at a time,
And all I could think about,
Was when I saw you for the first time.

I tried to hide my pains and feelings,
And make like everything was ok,
But when I saw your mother,
I made an excuse to run away.

I had dreams of you at night,
Illusions that you were here,
And when I woke up from my Fantasy,
My eyes were full of tears.

I’d never imagine,
That you wouldn’t be here today,
I wouldn’t have fussed and argued,
And told you to go away.

I didn’t get a chance to say “I Love You” before you left,
And I blame myself everyday,
And when I come to your Gravestone,
I will fall to my knees, and you will help me Pray.

But the Tears I Cry For You,
Are tears of sorrow, happiness, and guilt,
But, I have something to remind me of you,
And that’s of the Good times that we spent.